It was not about being the “bigger man”. Essentially it was about becoming a principled, disciplined person. I think it’s totally normal for us to feel angry at some point. It’s not about teleology - estiology: answer what could this experience mean? From now onwards, whenever I find myself getting frustrated at a person/thing, I delude myself to think of a happy memory associated with it. It’s a pretty hack I’ve been using lately. Foremostly, I need to be mindful of all the moments I share with others, not that many to be honest. I try my best to register the emotions I feel as I proceed with the conversation/activity.
The next step for me would be to acknowledge it then and there and appreciate the beauty of the person.
So whenever my heart feel anything “bad” about that person, I go to my happy place. I remember the specific memory which I share with that person, laughing, playing, eating, talking, working.
All we can do is improve ourselves from within. I don’t think there are right choices or wrong decisions. It’s only our subjective perspective that characterise them as such. For me personally, I think it’s rather important to take decisions that I can live with.
For example, In the current hiring season, I chose to opt out of the campus placements aka mass recruitments. Given the attraction of jobs in “giant” companies, compensation package, its only reasonable for a lot of my colleagues to question it. To me, there were a lot of factors which I would not bore you with. I just want you to know that I took a conscious decision which I’m happy till date. I’m grateful for my ever supportive family who trusted me with the decision rather than enforcing their expectation on me.